PERDITION

‘is final. ruin. love, for example, is perdition. because my girlfriend died back then, in my own arms. pain and emptiness. rock bottom. that’s deep inside. i saw her lying there and just sat there. i block that out. i’m so afraid of it, i don’t know if i can bear it, i don’t know what would happen. perdition is a long-drawn-out process. destruction happens in one fell swoop. then it’s behind you: bang and it’s over.’